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Thursday, March 10, 2005
Dear friends... from today onwards I will be blogging at http://fabian.co.nr/ . I think that it is more comfortable there... See you there cause there will be many updates! Yeah! I got my oil burning!
Posted at 03:29 pm by KID1417
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Chap Goh Meh ? I don think so
Hmm... it is already one week plus I came back from my hometown. The Chinese New Year mood had disappeared aand gone in a glimpse once I stepped onto the KLIA ground.
The university reopens without special events except the security guards keep screwing students around regarding the car stickers and smart cards. All around me seems normal... sunny (hot actually! burn like hell here!) except for my current condition.
Yes, I am sick for the first time of this year after I arrived here (Is it an unlucky omen? I wonder...). From that day on, my life just sucks x10. I have to take medicines and supplements to fight the bacterias inside of me. So, besides attending lectures and tutorials, I just rest and most of the time sleep at home after taking medicines that will cause drowsiness. Now is the 10th day I have been downed by sickness. I have given up hope to have a happy chap goh meh to bid the chinese new year a real goodbye. Here, i just wish everyone a Happy Chap Goh Meh and drink lots of water for God sake. Weather is like hell these days!
Posted at 04:07 pm by KID1417
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Sunday, January 30, 2005
I have been reading this blog, drliew.net ever since jason (jxt2j) introduced to me last year. Lately, I have been very busy preparing for my mid-terms and projects so there will be less updates. So folks, hold on to this link, juz give it a click and you will see the wonders inside. Updated almost everyday and it is totally cool!
Posted at 03:31 am by KID1417
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Thursday, January 20, 2005
More leng luis of my type
This one damn CHUN!!!
A hot picture!
This one very cute. I like her smile.
Posted at 12:14 am by KID1417
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
Friday, October 29, 2004
The Confession of a teenage sorrow king
My favorite teacher once told me that life always has it ups and downs. To overcome the down times, we have to acquire great passion and bravery. At that time, I was too ignorant to understand his teaching. My happiness which comes from over-protection of my family prolong until I step a feet inside this university. I know that this is a sign that I am slowly venturing into adulthood which I have to learn to grab hold of the world inside my own hand. I thought that by entering the university, I can be the "hakunamatata clan" until I graduate. Once, I was filled with anticipation that I will have a sweet campus life because I thought that I had acquired most of the answers in life.
My pre-university year was quite enjoyable because we are divided into small groups where we can learn effectively and make friends easily. I was embraced by my fellow friends for who I was. I had also joined many clubs to quench my curiosity for campus life. I thought that this golden time will continue forever until I didn't foresee the waves which were dashing towards me.
The rude awakening came after I parted with most of my friends and my best friend who went to Cyber to further their study. Possibly that my personality which began to alter (due to the new environment and exams), my friends whom I fully trusted distanced from me and even started some quarrels with me. I never thought this could happen, so I was left crushed and confused. At that period, most of time I was accompanied by loneliness and misery. Then I began to put a front for my hometown friends and parents, not wanting them to discover the sorrows in my eyes and worry. I felt like I had dual personality somewhere inside of me. One of them is the original me, naked and innocent and the other, fake and evil.
This did not mean that all the time my life is so uncolored. I had times of happiness too. However, more times than not I was digging a big hole in my heart to pump out all the emptiness that contained inside of me but failed. Maybe all these happened because I had been used to having good grades, the best friends and being recognized for my talents. But now I felt uncared for and invisible among my friends. The symptoms became visible when my friends started to yell at me, criticize me without even considering my feeling and gave me the idea that it was a wrong thing that I even existed. It brought a feeling of insecurity till I decided not to trust others and also began to paranoid that everyone was stabbing my back.
Gradually I began to wake up from this confusion or which I prefer to call it a total nightmare where I learnt that life does not bring anything to me, it is me who decide what to bring into my life. Moreover, I was quite lucky to meet a few friends who cheer me up and guide me to think positively. Eventually I was able to regain my composure. I felt more comfortable with myself and did not care so much about what others thought of me. I only responded to those who truly want me to change for a better me and not those who crap and backstab all the time. I began to make new friends and began to know how to choose a good friend and differentiate them from the bad. So far, I have learned many things from them and would like to take this opportunity to thank them.
I also manage to learn how to see the good site of people and avoid all the unnecessary quarrel and "mouth-shitting". My usual smiles also begin to restore itself on my face after I have decided to do things I loved instead of following my friends blindly. This makes me happy in a way. Now I hold on to my own saying which is "if a friend cannot accept who you are and start to bull shit on you, stay away from him/her". So far this is the most valuable thing that I learn in this university (not academic wise of course).
Lastly my conclusion is that God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change (which is our past), the courage to change the things we can (which is now), and the wisdom to know the difference (which trains your differentiation skills in math). There are many ups and many downs in life like using the lift, but the important thing is whether we can see through it or not.
P.S: One of friend told me that my blog is full of serious stuff.... what to do ler? I am a serious guy anyway (evil smile) hehehe....
Posted at 06:08 am by KID1417
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
It is a good thing to hear that my chess exam has been postponded to next wednesday. Woo Hoo... can really concentrate on my ETM exam which falls on this thursday. Oh dear, how I wish exam never comes (that is just a very childish thought).
Today chess class ended really late that was 15 minutes to 11pm! I didn't careless but before we stepped out of the class, Jian You decided to get some mid term papers from the lecturer. Oh okay I guess it harmed me not for waiting a lil bit longer. So I agreed to go inside with him. However, the conversation ended up with him and lecturer discussing chess moves. Wow... after half an hour has passed but they are still discussing. I wanna leave them there however they were using my chess set to play. Aih.... very very bored plus nothing to do but stare at the chess or otherwise trying to pretend I was deep in thought searching for a solution while they back and forward the chess pieces.
11.40pm I finally got to go home... but(why so many but + however) it is raining out there and it is still raining now.... So, after screwing Jian You (in my heart), I dashed back without newspaper or umbrella to prevent myself from getting wet because the back gate to my house cloise at 12 midnight. I know this is the raining season, so evrytime I go out, I will bring my umbrella for sure. Dunno what happen to me today that I forgot to bring my umbrella with me.
Rain drops kept hitting my face. No matter how slow I walk, it's still hitting me hard. The weather went worse... I have no choice but made my legs walked faster despite how painful my body was as a result of the pouring rain drops. At first, the thing I worried of my bag getting wet. All my notes and papers maybe wet and cannot be used anymore (lazy to dry them). But when I saw some water dripping down my head and my whole body is quite soaking wet... I began to fantasize a romantic picture. Ehem... like the one in the movie la... especially after a fight over an argument between couples, then the actor begin to chase the actresses and after a few pull and push.... they finally begin to kiss in the rain (is this stuff 18SX???). This is so romantic, I guess I have no chance of trying this out cause I don like to argue or fight. Another dramatic occurance is where the actress passed away because of cancer then the actor goes crazy then began to dash out of the hospital and then he shout and cry in the rain (Choi... choi... choi... I never want something like that but ermm by the way it sound very romantic again especially when the actor later being knocked down by lorry or being strucked by lightning and died). The last sad but romantic case I can think of is the guy after breaking up with the gal, cry in the rain (ehehehe... it is nicer that this story ends with the guy being knocked or something).
After a few fantasizing here and there, I finally got home "safely" without involving in some tragedy accident ehehehe. I hope that tomorrow I won't catch a cold because of this merciless rain... Maybe tonight I should spend some time thinking of some happy event where the guys and gals have the excuse to be in the rain (The chances are nearly = 0 because I don like happy story).
Posted at 02:35 am by KID1417
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Sunday, October 17, 2004
It is always late at night when this question emerge in my mind. This question has haunted me for years and still lingering around me especially these few days. Does heaven really exist? Do souls really wander around this dimension? After death, do we have our souls left or there are only ashes left? The most important is do I still have my precious memory with me or not?
Well, I do hope death is like where I sleep eternally and live inside my own sweet dreams. of course together with memory of my beloved family and friends. This life is full of things that are too dear for me to let go. Sometimes, I do wish that someday I can spot a ghost so that my lil heart can get a little bit better. At least I can roam around on earth freely.
Maybe because I am a free thinker and still have many doubts to involve myself in any religion, my faiths to this after life thing is very low. I hope that some day, some one can guide me through this shallow thoughts of mine. And I do hopee this some day could come soon. As for now, the best thing I can do is to let my mind becomes exhausted until it cannot think of other things.
Posted at 07:17 am by KID1417
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Friday, October 15, 2004
For all the music lovers out there (especially for those who play musical instruments), you will sure love Maksim's new album "variations part I and II". As you can see the album is splitted into two parts. The first part is more similar to his first album which is the "Piano Player" and on the other hand, the second is more towards classical music (one of them is composed by him ). Hmmm now for the important parts, why I wanna introduce this album? Well, I am a music lovers especially classical music + musics that will not bang your ear drums too much ahaha. Besides, the music with no singer can express itself better and makes you fall into the world of melodius tune. It makes us put more concentration on how all the musical instruments are combined together and how the tune changes from one variations to another. I am sure that after some expose to this kind of music, your musical talent and theory will increase rapidly. So this album is a healthy album to everyone. There are so many things which I wanna express here but I can't seem to put them in words. So enjoy and get the benefits.
Posted at 05:02 am by KID1417
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Monday, October 11, 2004
How I long for weekend to come during the weekdays. However when weekend comes to play its role, everything becomes so dead and I am seriously bored.
This week also the same. Aih... much time is spent on sleeping, eating and in front of the computer. I know many things can be done in two days but I just don know what to do. Honestly, I can spend this two weeks reading books, doing lab report and study for my coming exam but I fail to do so. It is harsh to see the time flying pass you and you can't do anything about it. The important thing here is my time management I guess. So I'll try hard next week. Shrug off all the unnecessary things I do and concentrate on the thing I really wanna do.
Posted at 03:34 am by KID1417
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Although you are fated to miss the star you desired, you still have to stretch both of your hands high up to the sky because at least you will be among the stars.
What lies between the possible and the impossible is determination.
My energy comes from my weakness. My success comes from my failure and my working attitude determines my limit.
You will learn the truth meanings when you know the price of all things.
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